just when you think you find the best thing in the world, the greatest person you know. he get sick... really sick. it was the sadist couple week to watch this love of a year melt and wither away in front of your very eyes. people change when they are sick. he got weak and could barrly get out of bed. he got grumpy. the only thing i could do was try and make his pain a little less. cook, clean, get his notes for other students so he could keep up in school on the good times. but instead of thanking me. he just snapped at me time and time again. but he was sick so i held it to myself. he wasted his time playing video games while he got better and for a while i was happy he was just getting better. but this is one of the evils of the video game. especially WOW. he could no longer pull himself form the game. he had become addicted. i was now second in stand of first in his life. the grumpiness continues. snapping and even yelling at some point for asking simple question like how are you feeling today or what would you like for dinner and when. thing like asking him to come to bed instead of playing the load video games. but nothing be snapping. I feel like a scolded puppy. over and over again. My tail is almost flat against my belly in disappointment. this morning. i woke up early for a huge project at school. part of my final. he got so made he locked me out of the bedroom in the middle of me getting ready... i have been so stressed by this point. i throw the ring that he gave me for my birthday on the desk. and stormed out. by the time i got home we have been broken up. he had become pissed at me and i had become so afraid of him. i started to pack and get ready to move out. he came home in the process. he walked over to me and gave me a hug and told me he was sorry. we sat down on the couch as watch a little tv. happy to just be back with him... i love him. but recently he as left my side once again to sit in front of that screen and play games. but this time he pulled out a bottle of rum to wash out the sound of me crying in the living room... as if he ever herd them before. idk what to do... lose him.. the man i loved or pack and live for a while or. stay with him.